why everytime i say to take the mobile broadband, you everytime say wait for this promo wait for that promo. how do you know there will be promo? you are not even working in any of it. oh please, do you think now can find anything which is temporary without any contract ? it will not lor. everything now HAVE contract. see properly. H-A-V-E HAVE!!!!!!!!! why everytime you must link it back to some other stuff when it doesn't link at all. gosh. seriously, what are you thinking ?????!!!!!!

yes i know i need to clean my room, need to pack and stuff. but hello? why can't you call that small kid to do as well ? not as if i staying alone in the room right. i SHARE the room with her okay. why don't ask her clean as well.. everytime is ask me until you see until pek cek and help to clean it. she's not very small anymore okay. and her exams are over. SHE IS VERY FREE NOW. i can't understand why can't ask her.

and please don't link everything that she's doing with me okay. yes i am the eldest and a sister. so what ? you think in her mind got me as a sister not ? you ask yourself, you see yourself. use your eyes to see clearly. i have my own life. not that i don't want to love her but seriously, you see what she do to me, and all. i flare up, shouting and everything because my limit is max. sometimes i really tolerate until cannot tolerate, i cry to myself. i seriously don't know what's more you want from me. i'm trying very hard. everything that is happening now, make me doesn't wanna come home. i wish to go ipoh and slack for the longest time i can. i feel like running away. i don't wanna face anything. i know i am running away from reality. i can't really take it anymore.

我很辛苦！！！！！！！！！

可是誰會知道我在想什麼呢。。

沒人懂我的感受。

我只是想要一個很可靠的人

聽我說話。。

learning how to be not irritating to people

learning how to keep things to myself

learning how to be independent.

how i wish to leave everything here and go somewhere far away.........................

God.... what to do...

can you tell me...

i don't feel any peace at all.

sigh.